John 3:19 "This is the judgment, that the Light has come into the world, and men loved the darkness rather than the Light." It wasn't talking about me. I always sleep with a light on somewhere in the house.
And I was asleep. I was until consciousness as quietly and gently as my cat follows my steps, entered and chased away sleep. I had no idea if it was night or day. Through the slats of the Venetian blinds something shone faintly and coolly to my eyes, blinking as I inclined my head slightly from side to side whilst trying to decide if it was the sun or the moon. It was night I decided as all around that light was darkness.
I could have closed my eyes and tried to go back to sleep. I did not. I did not because there were many, many years where I had to do that. I had to work the next day. Not anymore. Tonight I can get up and enjoy being alive. It has been raining and the crickets roar has lulled. It seems a perfect background to Phil Collins singing "In the Air Tonight."
Son number 2, that means second born because I have no other way to differentiate, is coming tomorrow. Today now, just much later. He loves stew - tomato based stew - and I'll start that and maybe I will play the piano and maybe I will write. Also I will do some bad things. I will make a pot of coffee and drink the whole pot. I'll listen to the crickets with one ear and Phil Collins with the other and smoke half a pack of cigarettes. But tonight I'll feel happy - deep down, pure joy to be alive. And there is one thing I will not do. That is the last part of John 3:19, "for their deeds were evil." I won't do any of that.